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November 29, 2008

Intelligent Animals and Odd Women

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I’ve been reading a book called Odd Women by George Gissing. It was written in the 1800′s sometime, and even though I enjoy reading books from that time period, this one has little interesting to say. What is interesting in it is it’s portrayal of “odd women,” women who wanted a career in a society and time period where they were expected to stay at home. For a book about people who want something other than marriage, it spends a lot of time with marriage. A woman has trouble with her husband, leaves him after he wants to control her thoughts, and then right off wants to marry someone else right away. This is very strange plot. It also has a plot twist no modern writer would think of. Apparently, a man and women couldn’t sit together in a living room alone without suspicion, so of course when the married women knocks on the door of a man she knows, the whole community believes she’s been doing improper things with him. Now a writer today would never think to write that. I guess that’s what townspeople did with no TV to watch.

Today Ernie told Walter the dog they were going for a ride and then went into the back room. Well, of course Walter couldn’t handle that, ran right to  our gate for the back room, then starting crying and watched outside the window to see if Ernie’s car was moving. That was interesting. I could see the wheels turning in his head: maybe Ernie had wriggled his way out the back window and ran around to the front of the house to the car, just so he could leave for a ride without the dogs. It makes you wonder. If babies eventually get over the “peek-a-boo” idea and stop thinking you’re going when they can’t see you, when do animals do this? Mom says Gerard our earlier dog thought anyone human could hide in the same places he could. Ebony our dog used to hunt behind the TV for predator animals on nature shows. Maybe it’s a predator-prey thing. Would Walter eventually understand that getting around the house would be difficult for Ernie? Probably not, but that’s just Walter. He wants to know where Ernie is all the time, but he’s a smart dog. Which part of an animal or human brain is this located? I wonder if it’s the same as the chickens not understanding about glass. They would try to drink tea with me by pecking at the glass. Since many of these animals are quite bright, it does make me wonder about this portion of their brain. If a 18-month-old child (or whatever age it is) can figure out this type of thing, what prevents the animals from doing it?
Food for thought.

Today I searched for jobs, went thrift shopping with Mom (who was called to scrounge at Savers). She’s looking for a cabinet, and found it but the prices were too high. Searching for jobs is beginning to annoy me. Half the time they do not have the right keywords or catagories so far at least. Makes searching difficult. I got a camera that makes stereoscopic pictures, but it can only be viewed with a little viewer. Really a silly thing to buy since I can’t see 3D, but I thought it would be fun. The batteries and film are still useable — I know because Mom tried it on me with the flash).

I took my banjo down to the music store the other day with my neighbor, who was quite happy to come along and knew just what to say to the music people about what my banjo needed. We took a tour of the place and looked at the different instruments — something I wouldn’t have neccessarily done by myself but I enjoyed it. I bought a book on banjos.
We had porcupine meatballs for dinner, and pie (third slice of the day, very good). Now we’re watching mysteries on TV, so I’ll end the post now.

November 27, 2008

Thanksgiving

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Well, here it is Thanksgiving. Which seems strange as it didn’t feel like Halloween this year or last. Ernie came with his dogs and we are at home today. I imagine everyone is at home today, and probably all eating. We have a cranberry-pear and mincemeat pie on the counter cooling. Ernie’s making a turkey. I’ve been trying to think of crafts I could do, but so far haven’t done any but knitting. I don’t know what to write about in this post. Dad told Ernie I was planning to post here, and Ernie said “Good God!” as in, “Is she really?” And he’s right.

I’d like to post some writing here, craft plans, though I don’t know how to go about it. It’s overcast here today, slate grey outside, and cold, even though Mom keeps throwing both doors open and saying it’s too hot. It is, too, because we have new yellow siding on the house, which makes it look different and great and warmer, even if it does ruin my ability to tell cabs “Go to the worst painted house.” And you know, they could always find it. Worked like a charm. But I like the new siding.

Dad set up a new screen door, one of those with cross-hatch wires and bars. It looks kind of strange, because it clicks shut behind you very securely, and reminds me of the type of door in rough neighborhoods. But it does mean that we don’t have to worry now about people come to the door, on account of the screen door. So that’s good as well.

And what have I been doing? Well, for one thing, this is the longest I’ve written anything in quite awhile. College fried my brains, I guess. The house is full of pie smells today, and dog-mud, and there are bits of glass in the carpet where Mom threw down two bowls that were locked together. She wanted to jolt them apart, but instead the little one shattered. Ernie and Dad are at the table working on computers, and I’m here at the couch doing the same, typing with Zoomtext off, and trying to think of what to say, here in this blog.

Last weekend I made banana chips because the Milk Pail, an absolutely wonderful produce market, had a major sale on boxes of bananas. I got a box and spent 10-12 hour days for the weekend making chips. They were great, like taffy. We have now eaten more bananas here in the past week or so than ever before. Whenever I go past the jar, I get some to chew and Mom has them with yogurt. I made some banana chutney too, which I’ve been bragging on a bit. That’s because Mom got me some canning jars and equipment and showed me how to can. I made sauerkraut too, which looked amazingly fine. I tried some a few days ago and Mom said I would probably die from the food poisoning entirely. But it turned out just fine and everyone else here had some and said it was very good sauerkraut. And now I know a little about how that works.

Mom’s been trying to train Walter, Ernie’s dog, about the proper place to lie down in the kitchen. She’s always tripping over him in there, and now that Walter knows where he needs to sit, he’s usually got one foot over the carpet, or is standing behind Ernie. Wolfie and Walter are always watching for crumbs from heaven. I even took apple scraps and eggshells out to my worm farm this morning, and Wolfie followed, jumping and watching intently. I don’t know why, since he’d certainly have a time with the eggshells. Dad promised him we’d feed him some peanut butter later today. That should be fun. I believe Wolfie would try to eat almost anything. He had a good look in my worm bin, and then around Mom’s smoker. He’s been dying to have her open it, since she hasn’t cleaned it yet, and it smells of chicken grease and beef and sausage. We aren’t smoking our turkey, but Mom’s turning it on the rotisserie.

Dad’s music is playing on his computer, and Ernie’s chopping things in the kitchen. We got some new light bulbs there, which makes a great difference. You no longer feet blind while in there. (Although I suppose I could’ve taken my cane in. “Where are you going?” “Off to the kitchen.”) We didn’t notice anything was wrong until the new lights brightened things up.

The herbs and peppermint and cactuses are stored away for the winter in the new greenhouse. Mom and I went out today to fetch basil and sage for the stuffing. Of course we had to eat some too. The squirrels keep getting in the green house and playing soccer with my sugarcane sets. They must be. They’ve never yet gotten over the fence with one, but leave them perched various places on the fence, still covered in potting soil. That, and they’ve turned over my garlic too. I’ve told them if they would only stick to weeding the garden, I’d be pleased, because they’re quite good at that, but instead they bury nuts and throw the sugarcane about. I’ve never seen one  yet with a sugar addiction, but who knows? Maybe there’s a squirrel out there who raids ice tea sugar at picnics. A squirrel mafia, maybe. Little cartoon squirrels with John Dillenger hats. Now that would be cool. “Give us something or we’ll tear up your yard!” But really, we get on well with them, and don’t have the problems our neighbors do. The squirrels live in our oak tree, coming down for breakfast and nodding good morning to us. For the most part they leave our plants alone and come with the humming birds and doves to drink water out of the fountain. Did you know, they take shifts for breakfast? The squirrels, doves and little birds must have an organization going, because each morning a different group comes down from the trees to eat, about 7 of the animals altogether, all different kinds. They have a squirrel sentry or a bird sentry and warn each other when something suspicious happens. They’re used to us, however, and so we can watch them very well from the arbor or the deck. Today I haven’t been out to check on them as I’ve been in here. But we have a regular community of animals there, and had a larger one in the tree, until the raccoon came a few years ago. We got him to leave with mothballs eventually. Now the littler animals have begin to live there again. Once recently there was a big fight over of the squirrel nests there, with bits of nest and leaves pitched around, and a lot of swearing going on. That was the largest nest up there, and I suppose several families of squirrels wanted to live there. (Really like an apartment complex). Regardless of who moved in, they settled things. Now that it’s winter all the animals are probably too busy to bother having arguments. (Except for Wolfie and Walter, of course, who generally sleep on either side of Ernie when we’re all watching TV on the couch, and every now and then go outside to play-fight each other all over the yard.) Today Wolfie climbed up the slide and did his usual “I am lord of all that I survey.” Then Ernie came out and he went down the slide again, which was fortunate, because he’d been comteplating which side of the swing set to jump from, even if it is five or six feet high at least. Mom kept telling him to go down the slide, and Wolfie had been ignoring her. Then he ran off the slide.
Well that’s all I can think of to write at the moment. I’ll post something later.

My First Post

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Hello. Here is my test post. Someday I can use Dragon with this, although I will have to be very careful because Dragon swears.

February 23, 2007

Contact Us

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January 10, 2007

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Since Dawn hasn’t posted anything here, yet, I’m taking it upon myself to post this for her.

Dawn has always loved to write. She was fortunate to have been a student at San Jose State University Child Care for her pre-school and the same teachers moved to Horace Mann School near the University in downtown San Jose and Dawn attended Kindergarten there with them.  They had an intensive creative writing program and Dawn loved it. Dawn always loved reading even before pre-school and even created stories before she could write. She continues to love creative writing.

In high school, she submitted a short story to the Palo Alto Weekly, a local newspaper. She won First prize for ages 14-17.

Here is a link to the newspaper article and the story.

June 24, 2006

About

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Hello.I’m Dawn. I enjoy writing. Right now I’m doing internships and looking for jobs. I recently graduated from San Jose State with a B.A. in History and a B.A. in Anthropology.

Welcome

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Welcome to Dawn’s Blog.

More to follow.

November 30, 1999

Interviews

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On       I had a wonderful interview with All Ears Audiobooks ADD MORE

Went to internshp Tuesday February 9th, scanned one and a half binders (I’ll have measure this new batch, but I think I’m nearly done at least with initial scanning). My computer has locked me out, which is why I was doing stedcanning only. Went to History club afterwards, where I have not been for about a year, strangely. Prof. U. wanted to know what I’ve been doing, so I explained looking for scanning jobs etc., and while we were discussing this, Prof. P came up and explained a possible scanning job with her and took my number. I talked with her about the various reasons PDFs might work, such as portability accessibility, etc. She also recommended that I check with the library, which has E-reserves and scans there, which I will have to do.

Las Vegas part 03

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December 30, 08

Mom and Dad went to do the laundry and I wandered through two hobby stores and a Office Max while they were at it. Found a Borders bookstore by accident. No luck finding sausage books, but they have several small-batch canning guides. I’ll have to remember that, as we are always cutting down our canning amounts at home. Spent much of the day out today and came home around dusk.

December 31, 08

More shopping today. Mom and Dad took me to the International Market — Food 2 Go — which is excellent. I spent quite some time just wandering around looking at the unusual things to eat.

They had:

sand pots (ceramics)

small and industriulsize stainless stain tea pots (and 3-tier vegetable steamers)

pickled lettuce, O-leang Powder –Thai iced coffee (which has coffee, corn and sesame seed in it); ginger honey concentrate,

All Not Hidden

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Dawn Wood

Copyright Jan 10, 2001

All Not Hidden

Dad and me were hanging gunnysacks on posts. They were filled with pecans ready for drying, and my throat itched with the sour smell of burlap. Already the sun was high and I was sweating as I secured the last of the bags. Dad poked me.

“Kern, remember to shift them.” He hit the bags lightly, and the pecans rearranged with the sound of rattlesnakes. “You forgot last time, girl,”

He smirked and started homeward. I trudged behind, wiping my hands on Joby’s worn overalls, staring down at the dust rising over my cracked sneakers. They had been Joby’s too, and I wore two pairs of socks with them. We live on Beer Can Hill. Maybe you heard the song, but it’s not the same place, just a row of burdened shacks. Cottonwood and pecan trees were scattered over the landscape. The houses either sagged into each other to the point of falling down, or squatted randomly off by themselves. Rusty tricycles and dirt-gray junk littered people’s yards. At night, dust seeped into the houses, layering everything with grit. It was a desolate, uninviting place, but we were children and didn’t think it was. I like to think my mother found some comfort there, a place of her own. Maybe she did. Mom named me after the wild river that flooded our house yearly.

When we came in, Mom was stirring a pot of coffee over the stove, and Millie, who’s two years older than me, sixteen, was trying her best to look beautiful. It was no secret she was the favorite of us. With carmel-colored hair and a slight build, she looked odd next to me, brown and rough boned as a calf. Joby was sweeping at the dust. He was a year younger than me, with dark darting eyes and a mischievous grin. By the time he was born, there was no patience left for me. When Millie was ten, I was still struggling to know my letters, and my folks had given up on me being any use at all.

Mom glanced at me absently, “Kernie, take the baby. You’re a half hour late.” She stopped juggling the baby on her hip, holding him out to me like a peace offering. She looked too tired for me to protest. “Find anything good?”

Most mornings, Joby thumps me awake at four o’clock, and we hunt down bargains. It takes a bit of walking, because we raid people’s junk piles, and you’re liable to get shot doing that. We found cans, inner tubes, a wooden crate, and a small engine Joby said he was going to fix.

“Sure did,” Joby said. The baby howled, and I stuffed bread in his mouth and rocked him. Millie stared down the table. It was a salvaged cable spool from the oil fields, rough and splintery. When we brought it to the house, we had climbed atop it, and rolled up and down the bank. Mom rubbed oil into it until the knicks and cuts on it shone, but it was still too small. Someone always had to balance their plate on their knees at mealtimes.

Millie said, “Mom, I can have a car, right? You’re saving for it?”

My mother nodded and set breakfast on the table.

Joby said carefully, “But you said if we got enough money Kernie could go to school again.”


“Oh, honey,” There was a half-smile. “Millie’s a young lady now. She needs to look presentable. Besides, you don’t mind, do you, Kern?”

I shook my head, and Joby stomped out, hands jammed in his pockets. I followed him, carrying the baby. He was down by the river. A boy drowned there last year, caught in the undertow. I sat down beside him, the baby next to me. “Don’t know why you’re upset. It’d be a waste of money.”

He pitched a rock in the water. “‘She don’t read’. That’s all they say about you. It’s always, ‘Mind the baby while we go to work.’ One of the old ladies round here could do that. Then they say, “Kernie ain’t workin’ today.’” He made a noise in his throat.

I turned my hands over. The palms were torn from shelling pecans, fingernails stained from the dye. Tough as leather. “I’ll work harder. Honest. Next year they’ll let me go.”

Joby’s eyes flashed, riled. He threw a rock hard, and snapped, “They want an education for all of us— just not you.” He jumped when he saw some of the Hill’s little ones behind us. Joby swallowed. “What do you want?”

“Hide and seek,” they chorused.

“All right,” he said. “See if you can beat Kernie.” They scattered. I was the best hider. I had the ability to blend into my surroundings. I hid under the cottonwood tree’s shelter, the baby cradled against me. Joby shouted, “Barley, wheat, oats and rye. All not hidden, holler aye!”

He found me of course. He always did. We could hear Dad shouting for us, and we raced each other back. Dad yanked Joby by the arm. “Come on. It’s bad enough you stop to play games. Your mother went ahead to work. I’ll lose money if I’m late..” Dad did piecework in the drying sheds at a nearby farm. His hands were fast sorting apricots.

“Kernie…” Joby began, but Dad snapped, “Kernie don’t have the sense God gave a goat. Get in.” He pushed Joby toward the car and tossed his backpack after him, then roared off.

Back in the house with the baby, I got out Joby’s old books, staring at the pages. The words swam in front of me. My stomach rumbled, but I didn’t bother seeing if there was anything to eat. We needed whatever was left for dinner. I looked at the pictures instead. They were nothing like the barren dirt-covered land where we lived. I had been out to the crop fields with Joby, and the color there shocked your eyes, right next to gray dirt. Everything else was colorless. After awhile, I fed the baby and found Joby’s engine. I got a spare toothbrush and began slowly rubbing away the grime and rust. I had all the time in the world.

Sometimes at night when I couldn’t sleep, I’d work on the engine. It’s metal had been cleaned, and it gleamed at me as though it were a puzzle I needed to master. I brought out our battered encyclopedia, following the words underneath pictures. Piston. Crankshaft. Flywheel. The words were magical. With a screwdriver, I discovered them, just like the book said. I oiled and cleared away cobwebs. When I was finished, I buried the engine under burlap sacks. I don’t know why, except it was the only thing I could call mine. The few things I owned never belonged to me, and I had little attachment to them. We had moved so often from job to job, that everything was either lost along the way or seized in evictions. “It’s better this way,” Mom would say, when we yearned for something we had once had. “You’re free as a bird and nothing can touch you. Don’t you see how it’s better?” But I wondered if she was telling the truth, if she believed the words herself. Was it good to have no place that was home? Did that make you free?

During the week, I found my work wasn’t boring anymore. The engine had given me something stable. I found time every day to work on it, between caring for the baby, doing the house chores, and shelling the dried pecans. I was cracking a gunnysack full, when I decided to do something I hadn’t done before.

I took the baby with me to the library. I had gone before, of course, but always at Joby’s heels, and never for myself. There were books with pictures about engines. I followed them at home, the engine in front of me, until I found that I could read the books without pictures as well. One night the flywheel turned. My breathing caught for a minute, and I turned it off, burying it hurriedly, in case someone woke up. I never told Joby. He had forgotten it entirely.

“Kernie, could you go to the store for me?” Mom dished up stew, and handed the shopping list to me, distracted. “Oh, here. We need flour, eggs and milk. Can you get that?”

“Yes, ma’am.” I stuffed the list deep in my pocket, and ran along the road until I reached where the river bank ended, and the town stretched out before me. I was giddy with knowledge. I could read the list any time I wanted. The store was cold, like a cellar, and a bell over the door rang when I entered. There was a woman behind the cash register who watched me as I picked out my purchases. She had the shriveled brown face people get here, and a thick smoker’s cough. As she rang me up, she said, “You’re the McCuller’s girl, aren’t you? Got them eyes…you don’t look like yer sister though. You’re the one that’s dumb. ‘Course, might expect that from those redneck folks down by the ditches.” She glared at me. “You didn’t swipe anything, did you?”

I shook my head. A wordless rage was filling me from what she said. My family was mine. She had no right. But I only slid the book I wanted over the counter, and she rang that up, too. I could feel her eyes watching me until the bell clanged behind me.

When I got home, Mom said, “What did you get?” and I said, “A book,” before I could stop myself. Millie laughed. I was startled when my mother handed the baby to her and snapped at me. “Did you get that with grocery money?”

“Just a little,” I mumbled.

“A little is what we have. For God’s sake, have some sense, Kern. Those people down at the shed spend that way, and look where it gets them. We need every cent your father brings into the house, and all you kids can scrounge— “

She didn’t move when I stalked past her, with her shouting after me. I’d had about all I could take. The woman at the store had hated our people for the money we didn’t have, and my mother hated the people at Dad’s work for the money they had to waste. I didn’t hate anybody. The book I bought was on mechanics, where everything was calm and routine, and what you did with your hands was valuable. I waited until I could gather my strength to face the family again.

Two months later Millie found the engine. She had just gotten in from school, and she dumped her backpacks by the door. The metal clanged, even muffled by burlap. She uncovered it and recoiled, wiping grease off her hands. “It’s so ugly. It’s disgusting.” Joby looked surprised when he saw his “bargain”, but it was me who hit her.

Dad jumped up and shook me. Millie sat straddle-legged, tears ruining her makeup. “I only wanted to look at it.”

“Well, that’s it,” Dad said. He let me go. I backed away, shaking, my hands knotted up. He turned to Joby. “Take that outside. Let the garbage man have it.” He glared at me. “I don’t know what got into you. Your sister’s getting her car tonight. When we’ve saved up enough for you, you can go to that special school, but until then, you’re needed here. Best you remember that,”

Joby paused by the door, the engine in his hands. I sputtered, “You– you bought a car for Millie?”


Mom sighed. “ It’s not new. Millie’s fit for better things..” Her brown hands fluttered nervously, knuckles thickened by work.

“I want to go to technical school,” I blurted. Nobody said anything. Joby slid out the front door, and I ran to my room. I snatched up a burlap sack from the corner. It was the pecan sack I used with Dad when we harvested, and it had thick canvas straps. I layered it with shelled pecans, and everything I considered mine. I knew then I would never go to school, not here. If I was lucky I’d work in the drying sheds, growing up with a brood of babies of my own. I’d live in a house like this, where the river and dust made life miserable, with no money. It wasn’t the life I wanted. I heard the baby howl as I slipped out the window, and someone hushed him. There was no sign of Joby. I shouldered my sack, tied at the top with a shoelace. It was blistering outside. A tree frog sang somewhere, the grass tall enough to hide him. The weeds were dry, up to my ankles as I walked, headed for the cottonwood trees by the river. The sack twisted and beat against my back as I climbed one cottonwood, feet slipping in Joby’s old shoes. It was cooler up in the tree, and I was camouflaged by cottonwood blossoms. I don’t know how long I stayed up there, twisting the ends of my hair and thinking of nothing. When I finally realized what time it was, Joby was calling for me. I stared down at him. “Throw it away?”

“Nope.” He held out an envelope. “Sold it. Money’s yours, if you want it.”

I slid down the tree trunk, and jumped the last two feet. “I ain’t goin’ back.”

“You see me forcin’ you?” He leaned up against the tree. “The way I see it, I might as well go with you. Find us somebody who’d put us in school, or a job. You know how to pick pecans. And fix engines.” He looked down at his feet. “But now, look, Kern, you’ve gotta think about these things. Where are you gonna sleep? How are you gonna protect yourself?”

“I’ll find a way,” I said. I looked at him hard. “You’re makin’ a fool out of me, ain’t you? I’m tired of being sensible, Joby. I ain’t gonna be sensible anymore.”

He clenched the money in his hand, then handed the envelope over wordlessly. I snatched it from him and stuffed it deep in the pocket of my overalls. My fingers fumbled for the straps of my sack, but I was clumsy now, and slow to find them. Joby said beside me, “I’m not askin’ you to go back because I think it’s best or anything, Kernie. I want you to go back because we have a better chance of leaving later.”

He watched me standing there with my nose running. Finally, I threw the sack at him, and we started toward home. When I came in the kitchen, Mom jumped up, and Dad said, “Where were you?”

“Nowhere.” I was sweating. I reached in my pocket and peeled off the money that I had spent for the book and slapped on the table. My family stared at it. “There’s your damn money,” I said.

“Now wait just a minute,” Dad said. His eyes were gleaming. “Where did you get that?”

“Never mind where.” I told him. “It’s mine. I’ll do what I want with it.”

“Like hell,” he said. He nodded toward Joby. “You had a hand in this, didn’t you, buddy? Was it her plan or yours, because don’t you think for a minute you can pull anything over on me. Kernie didn’t earn that money, did she?”

Joby froze where he was standing by the door. His eyes got larger, and he swallowed. “Yes sir,” he said. “She earned every penny. Don’t say she’s stupid anymore.”

Dad shouted. Millie whined. The baby howled. While they were arguing about it, I went to my bed and laid down. That night I would hide the rest of the money, but now I put my hands behind my head and dreamed. Someday, Joby and me, we’d walk out of here carrying pecan sacks, or new suitcases, or better still, a car of our own. I’d go to school. Nearby I could hear the neighborhood kids start up another game of hide and seek: “Barley, wheat, oats…” but in my dreams, by the time we were halfway down the road, we couldn’t hear anyone holler aye.

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